Realizing the real fact only now.

rainbows do give pleasure to life. at least for me. =)

It's been such a long time since I last blogged. yup, busy is one of the reason yet when I do find some time for blogging, I couldnt find the mood to blog. there's so many things dat had happened during this one month. Happy times, sour moments, sweet memoirs, funny incident.. u name it.

If u were to ask me wat am I feeling right now, I'll say I'm very exasperated at this moment. sigh. I've always been one very patient person when it comes to dealing with ppl especially my peers but right at this moment, I'm not. Maybe I'm sensitive. yes, but who says tough guy don't cry? so disappointed with certain things which I really think it shouldn't be like tht. So watever man.

talking about studies, again there's so much to revise yet so lil time. All the tests are coming at once. Maths test is tmr on a holiday. imagine tht. jus give us a break at least. -.- moral test on fri and ICIS on sat. how ridiculous. I seriously won't be taking ICIS if it wasnt an obligation. It was worst than history. So, u can imagine how much I hate it now. Someday, I might jus turn into an old lady with white long hair sitting somewhere by the pavement and you will not even look at me. This sub is giving me headaches. uhh, nvm. guess studies are always like dat. and I'll always face this kind of stupid situation as long as I'm still a student and as long as I'm still studying. =\

Actually, I'm so looking forward for the raya break and I couldnt wait any longer to get back to where I belong. =| my comfort zone, I will say. It's somehow different to be here tho' I am already used to the environment and actually adapted to the ppl here. But yet it still isnt't the same back there in my home. It's been long since I last seen my family. No, I'm not havin homesick right now. It's jus dat I really want to spend a lot of time with them again. I mean, I missed the time we talked and laughed at home. I missed the noise at home. I missed my mom's cooking (shockingly). I missed chatting with my bro! (funnily) and I missed being in my room.

I kept telling ppl dun worry too much and dun think too hard. but I am struggling in doin it. lol I found myself spiritually dry these days. I dun find my heart fully focusing on His words and it's such a struggle. I need to reenergized everything and get me going. am trying to find some answers from the bible and God showed me this particular verse:

... we also rejoice in our sufferings because suffering help us develop endurance and endurance develops strength of character and character strenghthens our confident hope of salvation. Romans 5:3,4

Sometimes we stand up under the stress, and our character is proven. Well, tests of faith are take-home I will say, they seem to follow you around. I guess I need to learn how to stand firm in Him and be well prepared for spiritual battles that test my faith, like now. -.-

anyway, i shall continue with my revision.